Welcome to the World!!

Meet Lily Faith, born February 5, 2015. I always wondered how moms could remember exactly what time their child was born but 12:07 has been forever etched into my heart and brain. When I saw her face, I cried...and cried...and cried. I've never seen anything so miraculous and awesome and amazing and that moment will never leave me.

So far, in the last four days of motherhood I've already done about 75 things I promised myself I would never do. You know, you see a parent doing something and inwardly you roll you eyes and haughtily think, "Well I would never..." Wrong. You will.

"I will never let my baby have a pacifier." But when you're at the hospital and she is chillng out under the bright lights of an anti-jaundice bed...when you can't pick her up and hold her because the lights scare off that stuff in her blood...when she screams and cries and just wants something to make her feel not so lonely, you will. You will use that pacifier even though you swore you never would. 

"I won't be the kind of parent who picks up their baby at the slightest wimper." Wrong. You will. You will pick up your baby to just make sure she is still breathing...just to make sure this is real...just to make sure your tiny miracle feels safe and loved and cared for. You will stand around waiting to hear the slightest wimper so you have an excuse to pick her up and stare at her face. 

"I won't care who holds her. Pass her around!" It's different when she is yours. You see other people loving her and it makes you love her more...if that is possible. 

Welcome to the world Miss Lily! I can't wait for you to show me all the ways I've been wrong!